From Jill

Jill said...
To all our friends & family, thank you from Nathan and I for all the love, support & miracles from you.I apologise for not replying sooner but my brain has been a bit fried & I can't concentrate on writing and crazy weird things - Really exhausted.I've been trying to come to terms with my angel been taken away from me!It's the hardest thing in the world and still don't want to believe it!!!!I don't know what I'm going to do in Life without him and how I will survive. As Natey said, "we make the best team," and I said, "that's why I'm gonna struggle cos I'm not gonna have the part that makes us the strongest."Nate's my best friend in the world and I know I'm never gonna find a friend as special!! As for how much I'm in love with my babe, my chest is gonna feel empty. My heart is going to be taken with Nathan too. He has filled my heart with so much love that I've always said to him, "It's bigger than the world and even the universe!" It's the hardest thing to explain!!!I want to say to my baby, "You have made my life complete, I fell in love with you the first time I looked into your beautiful eyes" (cos damn they are HOT!!! - Damn Sexy!!hehe). Nate is a Hotty - It's been hard to keep the girls away hehe. I couldn't keep my hands off him, the poor boy, he couldn't keep me away for one second, I just want to spend every second with him forever.I knew from the first day I met him that he was an "angel" - my angel.I love you baby & you have made me the person I am, I wouldn't be this happy and alive if I never did!!!I feel so lucky to have all the support from Nathan's family over here and all our friends & family. I want to say Thanks to my Brain (AKA) Aaron - He has been incredible and I wouldn't be this strong without him - You have been my Rock!!! Mirelle - is beautiful,you're my sis and Damon & Matt have all saved my life.I love having us all together, I feel like your are my brothers and sister. Jim & Carol AKA Dad & Mum - I love you so much, Thank you for bringing me such a beautiful love into my life. I just love all Nathan's family so much!!! You Rock.Adam & Mandy - have been AWWWWESOME! Thank you for creating this awesome blog Adam. Nate & I thank you for the chance to have everyone with us in this hard time. Nathan is a brother to my sister Mandy. She has spent the whole time that Nathan and I have been together, around him. I love you moo so much!Nathan & I have been together coming up 5yrs. It's been the best 5yrs of my life...if only I found him sooner!!! I love you Baby forever and can't wait to be with you again.I want everyone to know that Nathan is going to be fine. God actually paralyzed me the other night, I think my heart & my lungs even stopped!!!, and he showed me looking down on Nathan and I was watching Nate run up a beautiful mountain through the clouds and I looked up and saw God and he said that he was helping me guide him home to him. Nathan looked soooo damn handsome too, he didn't look sick, and he looked the happiest I've ever seen him!!!I feel so grateful to God to have been able to see were my boy's going - I think he was getting annoyed at me cos I kept yelling, "Show me your face or you're not taking him!!!" hehehe, So he bloody well did!!I am taking Nate home to New Zealand to Rest where his heart is at Waipu Cove. I didn't need to ask him because I knew, but I told him and he's happy and I am too because I know he is never going to leave and we'll be together forever!!! I love you angel XXXX
October 13, 2007 2:57 PM